Sunday, January 07, 2007

Life is like a sine wave...

Just so you know... I did in fact see this coming. Last weekend was so wonderful...I had a few "I'm so high on life" posts. This weekend...not so much. I'm not unhappy. I'm just BORED!! The joys of living in a small town. Mark and I had a very long week, which is strange because in actuality, it was a short week. Mark's department at work has a bit of a surplus of people, so he's getting to relax a little more. My department is slammed. In a sense, I am my own department. In reality, Nan says I fall under sales. I don't, however, sell anything or get paid commission for selling anything. So...whatever. Anyway, I'm busy. Very, very. Which you would think would make me want to sleep all weekend. I have slept late both days. Until noon yesterday, which I haven't done in a long time. I didn't even sleep until noon on New Years Day. Somehow I did yesterday though, which should be a testament to how worn out I am. BUT...I can't sleep all day. This is something I've learned in my old age. If I sleep all day today, I'll want to sleep all day tomorrow and they next day, and the next day...you get the idea. So, while I do want to relax on the weekends, I don't want to stop moving completely. It's the whole physics thing. An object in motion tends to stay in motion, an object at rest tends to stay at rest. Maybe it's my depressive tendencies or maybe that's just life, but if I'm at rest for too long...it will take me days if not weeks to get myself really back in motion again. Not something I'm willing to risk. It's too much of a pain the ass. So, I want to go do stuff. Mark has just gone back to bed (and it's 12:30). It makes me want to rip my hair out sometimes. Not that I'm afraid to go do stuff alone. It's just not as much fun. Especially in Martin. I mean, really, I went to Wal-Mart last night. I feel no need to go back (although I'm out of paper towels now and I'm going to need some more since Hambone is not over his poopiness). So, ok I can go do that, but that will take all of 30 minutes total. I'm thinking I may drive to Paducah or Jackson. Victoria's Secret is having their semi-annual sale. I need some new underwear. I also need a new purse. What I hate about all this is that it costs money. We're not poor, but we also don't have it coming out our ears. January and February are a little tight due to higher electric bills, insurance payments and car tags having to be renewed. We've got money to get what I want to get, but I'm afraid if I suggest this, Mark will jump on me about finances. Finances being the one thing he ever jumps on me about. Now, I have been quite financially irresponsible in the past, but there were reasons for that. Not saying that they were good ones, but there were reasons. This is nothing that Mark has ever had to encounter with me. I took care of all the finances when I was with Lee. We did ok. I'm even better at it now. I'd like to point out, although it may be ill-advised, that he is the one that spends money when we don't have it to spend. That won't get me anywhere though. *Sigh* I guess I'll just go hop in the shower and get ready to go. When he asks me where I'm going I'll tell him. If he protests, we'll discuss it and I'll probably get to go anyway. Maybe he'll come along to police my spending. Then I win both ways! Hehe.

Hmm...don't know where all that came from! I really just wish he wanted to go do things too. Sometimes he does, but I think the cool, rainy weather isn't helping. I keep thinking that soon it will be Spring. Mark is all about Spring! We'll have to visit all the nurseries and start planting stuff. Get the garden started, etc, etc. He loves that stuff. I enjoy that we get to do it together. Although, some of it he could just have. I don't want it! I look forward to that time of year. In the winter we're kind of stuck in this house together all the time. In the spring he'll go off and work on the tractor and I'll work around the house and in the yard and then in the evenings we grab a beer and sit out in the pergola. That's the part of farm living that I love! Sitting outside in the evenings listening to the frogs sing and talking to Mark. Most of y'all know, Mark's not a big talker, but on some nights, when we're sitting out in the pergola he gets on a roll. That's when I learn things about him and hear his memories about the farm. That's pretty precious stuff to me. We also talk about the farm now, the things we've done to the house and the land, the things we want to do. It seems like it's always when we're sitting out there that we hammer out a plan. Although, since we've finished the library, we've spent a couple evenings sitting in there with a beer making plans. We've got 3 1/2 rooms left. The 1/2 room being the foyer, which only will really need new wallpaper. The laundry room is next. It's going to be good. If you've ever seen it though, you know it can only get better because it's puh-retty sad! Then the living room, which also only really needs wallpaper. Although with any luck there will be a new couch and chair too. Then the bedroom. That room is huge. It really only needs new wallpaper and some drapes (Laura, you ready for that one?). We're not far off from being finished, but I think once we finish I'll want to redo something else...probably the kitchen. I can see this being an endless cycle.

Wow, this has been a rather aimless post! Let's see what I have in the pictures archives to spice it up! Here you go: First is Tracy and Talley, next is the "other" Stephanie and last is Lauren. All taken at last week's party. Oh, and...life is like a sine wave. The upside to that being this...while I may be on the down side of the cycle now, things are bound to be on the upswing...it's just a matter of time. Again, it's all about physics. Happy Sunday to you all and Happy Birthday to my sweet nephew Caleb who is 2 today!

3 comments:

Newscoma said...

I am such a girl because my first reaction was "Darn, I look so fat."
I guess when that's been in your head your whole life that's what comes screaming forward.
But, heck, I've lost 85 lbs and that's the weight of two fourth graders so that's something.
What should have burst forth my cranium was what a lovely evening it was, listening to Cash, making bonds with friends.
Yeah, that's what I'm going for.
Trace

Anonymous said...

Wow! You know physics?! How impressive! ;)

What the heck is a sine wave? I thought that was a typo until you repeated it at the end.

It's been blah here too this weekend. But I guess that's fine since I've felt rotten the whole time I didn't even want to go anywhere.

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